Yes I Always Took Ritilin In School Then Was Switched

Yes I always took ritilin in school then was switched to aderal 60 20 MG's a day through high school and some of college. Once I outgrew my parents insurance plan I could not afford to see a doctor. I just got a good insurance plan through blue cross and van afford the doctor visits and medications again. I don't have a car at the moment so its hard to get around to find a primary care doc or a physiologise. I'm starting school again and am afraid I'll lose interest and don't be able to focus like when I couldn't afford my medications after losing insurance. Ive been diagnosed with depression, and add. Was on effexor and adderal when I seemed to be doing my best and could pay attention in class. I'm a 34 year old male who has a 10 year old daughter, works 30 hours a week and am going back to community college. I would like to get back on the medications that made me able to function and stay on task. I need to get my life back and am tired of always falling short of what I know I'm capable of. Seems all the young kids find ways to abuse these add medications, it makes it impossible for those who need it to actually be prescribed It . I grew up with three brothers who all took adderal, and vyvanse so it must run in my family. What's the best way to get myself back on track like the days I had it. What should I do to prove this medication truly is a life savor for me?