Hi, Im A 24 Year Old Female, I Know This

hi, im a 24 year old female, i know this is a weird question, basically i have been smoking marijuana off and on for 6 years but everyday for almost 2 years now to help my depression after a surgery devastatingly went wrong for me when i was 18. in those two years ive had terrible withdrawal symptoms when im not using.even if its just for a couple hours. nausea, irritability, feeling hot and sweaty then freezing,cant sleep, vomiting,cannot stop crying its ridiculous how much i cry, no appetite..the works..feels like hell in my body but the worst is these burps i get wen im not using. i cant stop belching, burping,which turns into feeling nauseous and i cant eat in those times because i will throw up. what should i do. my body is obviously physically addicted..i dont no how to get off of the weed. i litterally feel so ill when i stop, i get suicidal thoughts u feel guilty for doing this to yourself in the first place. im screwed. i cant get out of it.i appreciate any advice. thanks for even reading.