Hi My Name Is Daniel, I Have Been Seeing A

hi my name is daniel, i have been seeing a theriopst ever sence i was a child, im 37yrs old now, i was sexually melested by my father at a very young age, ive never been able to trust anyone i always think people are out to harm me, i hold deep gruges agaist people who have done me wrong, i am diganocied as having a personality dissorder but when i looked up parinod personaity dissored i had alot of signs of parinod personality dissorder, ive been hospitolized 3 different times in my life for trying to kill myself and have scars all over my body from cutting on myself, im not suicidal anymore i was just wondering if im dioniced wrong, i cant have a relationship with a girl cause i dont trust them, im dissabled not only from my mental illness i have alot of phycical problems also but my theriopist has me on 100mgs of zoloft that helps my deppression but they dont give me anything for my personailty dissorder, but it sounds like to me i have parinod personaity dissorder, i cant be around groups of people when i do i start having panic attacts and my anxiety is through the roof cause they wont give me anything for my nerves, what kind of medication should i be on from the information i have given you, there is more i just didnt want to keep rambling about my problems, thank you for your feedback.