Hight Pulse Rate Upto 140, Bp Updown..body Shaking,, General Physician

hight pulse rate upto 140, bp updown..body shaking,, general physician gave me medicine of 1 weak for anxity but it does not stop..frequent mood swing,,cant feel relaxd & happiness..

ya physician told me to test thyroid,cbc,vitamin b12, VITAMIN
D...thyroid & sugar was normal.. D, B12 was in defficiency level..she
prescribe me multi vitamin & weekly vitamin d tablet for 3 months.. I
have completed that course..

i am facing this problem from last 2 years ..& from last year it has
increased...

i have a problem with sleeping also..some day i cant sleep someday i
sleep a lot..there are a few days when i sleep prperly or wake up with
fresh & energetic feeling..

i am quite foodie person..but past few months i am facing with my hunger
also..some times i loose appetite some times i am very hungry even after
taking food before half an hour..

i dont have sweating problem..

some times it happen that i need to pass urine frequently..bt its very
often like once in a month...

i am stressed about my job..i was working before..now i dont have job..&
want to do job.. i dont have no friends & at home i feel like cage... i
like to go outside do some work..

before 2 years i got married..at starting i have faced some understanding
issue with my husband... that time when we argued only then high pulse
rate breathing problem used to occour..bt when i took 2 session from my
homeopathy doctor..after that it was stopped for a very short time..then
suddenly i faced some problem with my inlaws..all the time they
missunderstood me..i cant reply them.. because they are elder than me &
they are my inlaws.. for all these i faced also some misunderstanding
with my husband..he also get fustrated about me..all these things
gradually destroy our intimacy..my husband is short tempered.. all the time
i feel a fear inside me..some time suicidal thoughts come into my
mind...some time i want to throw things which are in my hand..but i
control.. a time the situation become very difficult for me to
control..it is like some one inside me is telling me to do so...

from last 3 days i feel shaky all the time..cant feel free to walk...


m living with inlaws.. i left previous job because i faced a lots off anxity that time & vitamin defficiency that i cant get out of the bed.. doctor told me to get bed rest or get admited to hospital for 3 days.. & in my offc they didnt consider leave so i have to leave that job..

Now i am study hard for getting a job in it industry..being from electronics background i have to study hard for this...

But i am trying a lot to make my family happy.. but whatever i am doing they finding out some mistakes over there though thats not done by me...my husbnd did this... but they blame me for that..

All the day they whispering about me that i can hear...then automatically i get gustrated... they used very bad words about me infront of me even lie.. that i cant accept.. how can they are thinking about me like this..

I told them that whatever will be the problem just tell me discuss with me & my husband.. we should make out any middle way.. after all these discussions i felt better but from the next moment they start whispering about me... that is killing me from inside..

I told my husbnd that i cnt live in this situation..because my health is affect by this daily clashes .. even from the very 1st day i told him that i dnt want to live separatly from his parents.. i wnt a healthy family..

Bt now condition & situations are like that i cant face them.. i told him..but he told me that if i want to go then i can but he will not leave his parentx...but believe me i dnt wnt him to leave his parent.. i know he has the same feeling for his parent what i have for my parent...we both have responsibilities for both parent...i will always be there for them all... but this time i need help...i think if i maintain a littile distance then things will be all right... when he told me that i want to separate him from his parent agter knowing all the situations it simply broke me from inside.. i dnt have any hope on him...

I discussed with my inlaws that im going through some problems &i was talking medicine for anxity,i took counselling ..but i dont see any change in their behaviour.. they all the time used to say that i am week thts y i cry yhts y all the problems happen to me thts y i cant handle..

previously when i took counselling from one of my doctor then he went there...but after that he suddenly took all these point that i shared with my doctor... before 2 days when after waking up in the morning suddenly i burst out with tears all the conversations that i heared about myself all the lies came into my mind... that time my husband said thai i am making problem & its in my nature to make problem making all these things...that give a shock....i really didnt expect from him at that time... at night when again it was happen to me with sudden burst out with cry he was behaving normally ...so till 2 years i could not recognize his nature... even a lots of time he argued with his parent by taking my side.. but his behaviour is not constant... for that i always feel fear with my husband & inlaws..