I Am Desperate To Lose Weight, I Have No Will

i am desperate to lose weight, I have no will power left and I don't like any fruits, fish, red meat, and half the vegetables, I want to know if it is ok to eat tissue paper, not toilet paper, tissue paper. I was told and read that it expands in my stomach, as long as its white, is it ok? I can't eat small meals because of my job. what is the worst thing that could happen?