Im 47 Year Old Woman My Name And Working As

im 47 year old woman my name and working as a admin manager in a institution in palakkad..i think i was alright up to 24 th June .. on 25th june i visited to US for my daughter's delivery..unfortunately my daughter’s in law s also where there....my daughter n her in laws were not in gud relationship when i reached there...but i couldn’t show any indifferent attitude to them i respect them as usual and they started complaining about my daughter as well as life in US. The very first morning after my reaching she showed the same attitude against me too and complaining that im listening to them and not to her..she didn’t came out the room for 3 days and refused to see me. I was shattered of her behavior and i told her i will leave this place if she shows the same attitude and she got better after that not so happy with me, and she got delivered a boy baby after five days of my reaching and it was 28 day pre time baby. And she was complaing that because of the stress her inlaws gave her she got pretime delivery
After delivery also she showed the same attitude to in laws not allowing them hold baby and in lws were complaining and showing all the angry to me treated me very bad and started ordering to prepare food as per their wish and only come down for take food, my son in law is so helpless of attitude of his parents as well as his wife...I didn’t reacted for those thing because its my daughterlife and my doing or reacting may cause my daughters life so I adjusted and my daughter some time reacted to her in laws not respecting meat and she didn’t allowed me to talk with them or spent time with them and kept me inside the room if they are at down stairs.
She s our only daughter and we did the maximum to our extend to make her happy, but still she s unhappy with me n her father and cursing us for what we couldn’t do...like why u didn’t put her in a gud school like where music and sports are there.....she studies in Kanikkamadha convent where it was the most popular and good school before 25 years in Palakkad..she s complaint that we didn’t looked after very well and grandparents looked her and their characters influenced her more ...i are living in a joint fly system and i didn’t even thought of that view, i feel that kids growing with grandparents is blessing to them and she was more attached with my father in law and he was the one who helped her in her studies. She was very adjusting girl in her child hood and will get along with all at family.
but unfortunately she is complains about it now ..like that she s having so many complaints against me for her growing, and she is complaining about influences of my siblings in my life i have two brothers n two sisters and we are very close to each other and very caring about each other but my daughter saying if u got married u should keep distance from your siblings and you should take care of our family only. she got 100 complaints about me like this even i beat three time in her childhood. so many things i dnt even remember now..What to say for everything happened her life she finds me as a reason not much complaining about her father. The only thing she complaining is he is not looking after health properly.
Earlier also she was so adamant about her needs and made it done by cursing us like this. Even her marriage she decided and we were not much happy with his family but she was so stubborn we said yes and we did everything she demanded for her marriage. But still she s not happy about what we did above our limits… so many incidents like this happened in my life.
All above things happened in Us I requested to reschedule my ticket after two months of delivery where I couldn’t stay bcz of my daughters and her in laws attitude , I have a severe bleeding and a stomach pain , Every nite I have stomach pain at nite by 1 o clock and it lost up to five ….my daughter said its al my hallucination (might be) and I came back on 4th September.

Now I ll come to my exact problem. after coming back to India I m not in feeling good
In secured, feel like crying always so much worried about our future ….i lost all my confident ……im afraid of everything even my husband sleep for long time I go n check him whether he s breathing and face people if they ask about Us I feel down and stared hate travelling even seeing English people in Tv also im feeling like something odd..istening to English language in that accent make me disturb
News about Us disturb me and debating with people to put down US …worried worried about everything
Even afraid of traveling alone…where I was traveling to all the places alone…couldn’t concentrate on my work..even a movie I couldn’t concentrate ….tension about my daughter n her kid..if im not listening her voice for a day make me sleep less ….though she complaining cursing me over phone too..
Everyday ill see again again my grand kids photo but for last two days im afraid of seeing his photo.
I said all these things to my husband he s laughing at me ….i asked him to take me to a doctor he started shouting at me…I discussed about this to my friends he s saying u r too over looking keep things simple and face the life. Ur mentally disturbed so concentrate something else pray to god . My daughters saying bcs of the period of menopause im feeling like all these things.. I dnt knw …I always feel heaviness in my heart ,Pain in my breast some kind of shivering … earlier I was a brave woman and each n every one at my family ask openion for everthing , take me with them for their confidence now I lost my confidence and a fear is running in my mind…if something happens to me who will look after my husband how he ll live alone or vise versa and if anything happened to both of us what will happened to my daughter how will she live who will take care of her and no one is here in India after our life what will she do in her old age ,,,,I knw its all stupid thing and I convince myself but again ill think it after ten minutes ….some kind of fear alwys in my mind …I didn’t had it before im going to US..my daughter and her life in US made me mad I think ..i want her to back India n live a peaceful life but they are not ready. I knw I cant go and stay with her anymore. Thinking about that even make me crying…what should I do for this fear .. can u help me for this problem..or else u want me see me in person..
All of my daughter s curse in my head n giving me restlessness.