mental disorder.
My problems are following:
I get unwanted sensations,feelings,urges,thoughts related to following things ,mainly(as I cant describe every thought,urge or feeling)
1.food items
2.anything in my vicinity(surroundings) esp floor
3.faecal matter
4.god related
5.anything i have witnessed in the past
6.body parts
For eg:
1.I am sitting on my office sea doing my work in front of computer.i would get mild to intensive range sensations about any food item ,(in most cases it's carrot,some gravy item dal,manchurian etc)hovering round my body or is lying on floor or touching through my shoes.
2.I am writing something with my pen and I would get an instant thought and/or feeling of pen ink being over a faecal matter.
3.walking across the floor,i will get hyperaware of special strips of tiles and thoughts and feelings of me licking it up start coming up.
4.even while I am writing this, I am having these thoughts and feelings in the background.My tongue gets some sensations which produces some thought..like I am wearing earphones..I am currently having a thought and feeling of earphone nib caressing with my tongue
5.i get the thought and feeling of rat's skin or pig dog or any animal's skin hovering around.
My tongue or body
These are a few of many infinite examples.a ll these 6 types I mentioned above come up in modified forms,combined forms(all of them mixed together).
They either come up as in background as part of mental chatter or I get aware of them and start having them uncontrollably(Obsessions)
I am having no such issues tackling these problems as they are not problems at first place.They just need to be taken casually either I ignoring them or playing with them but sometimes I found it difficult to follow that.i feel mad at me.i get trapped into them with the fear
1.That I am the only one having such thoughts and feelings
2.get confused as to if I am the root cause of it i.e if I am creating them or something else.
3.want to end them but can't as to these are so instantaneous and unavoidable.i know there s no end just don't letting ourselves trapped into them,still unable to follow it.
Please help me out..these things are not my real enemies.the enemies are my reactions towards them,my unwillingness to counter them,me creating new probs related to them.
I sometimes feel would end up in asylum.