Told My Mother That I Am Suicidal And She Told

told my mother that i am suicidal and she told me that it is okay for me to suicide. and my dad is a rapist and I am scared they are both my biological parents I am so scared. And everybody hates me including my parents. I have been bullied several years. I got no friends.everyone that had ever got into my life and then got out of my life their lives had got better. I try to be a good person I dont know what is wrong with me or why this is happening, it like the who universe is against me. It was okay with me that I am a suicidal but once I found out that my father is a rapist now I dont know what to do now except killing my self. please help me.I cant tell anyone because I got no proofs especially that both of my parents are against me. What can I do??