Who Can I Talk To About The Recent Death Of

who can I talk to about the recent death of a family member, and talk to a female person and get properly diagnosed for borderline personality disorder,because all the local avenues of this have been exhausted because they are too busy,i also am having problems registering online at psychcentral.com for this disorder ,and I am presently experiencing anxiety and panic as a result .I need helping as I am breaking down emotionally. YYYY@YYYY