How To Quit Drugs?

Question : I need help and info different from what my doctor tells me. I've been addicted to opiates, norcos, Oxys, roxicodone, suboxone, and kratom. I quite opiates last dec using suboxone and stayed on it for 9 months. I quite cold turkey on 16mgs a day. It was 2 weeks of hell and no sleep. I smoke herbs and that helped me sleep. Kept the herbs up for about two months and then was just taking Xanax daily but was clean from opiates for 4 months. Relapsed on norcos because of the stress of buying and selling a house at the same time, and found out my wife was pregnant again. That threw me into a spiral 10x worse then my past addiction. I was taking up to 30 10/325 norcos a day or 7-8 30mg Roxie's or anything I could get my hands on. It started off slow at just a couple norcos on the weekend and then progressively got worse and worse. By April I was scared for my life because of the amount of tylenol i was consuming daily. I was worried about my liver and health. I kept this opiate run for about 2 months recreational and then four months heavy use. I decided to quite and took a week off work and used the loperamide, tonic water, grapefruit, vitamins, Advil, Xanax, and threw in kratom into the mix at the last second of my start of cold turkey. I read a post saying to add kratom to the mix and it would be a life saver. I went the first four days and nights sleeping like a baby mad just had mild headaches. I didn't poop for a couple of days until I started adding stool softness and laxatives. I was using up to 60 2mg loperamide and 10-15grams of kratom a day for the first two weeks. I tried lowering the dose of loperamide quickly and I went into what I remember from the suboxone as full withdrawals. I continued the kratom and slowly lowered the loperamide but increased the kratom for about a month after ct. I ended up getting more and more kratom and started using extracts mixed with XXXXXXX da and superior red dragon for another 1.5 months. I would occasionally get 20 norcos and do them either in one day or two days. Even after a couple months off opiates, I still had a tolerance to opiates. I currently me mixing the kratom now with norcos because I can't get a high anymore. I told my shrink everything that was going on and he suggested a short suboxone treatment. A month or less with a strict taper. He told me he would give me to start off a 2 week supply and when I went to pick up my films, there were one box of 30 8mg strips, and 15 more 8mg strips attached to the box. I instantly emailed my doc and said what's going on here, I thought we were doing a short taper. That seems like we're going right back to my old suboxone habit. I haven't taken any of the subs yet because I haven't heard back from my doc, and I know from past experiences that I have to be in withdrawals first before I can use the subs. I don't know the half life of kratom and I don't want to go into instant acute withdrawals because I didn't wait long enough. This would of been a problem if I wasn't going with my family and friends away for a week for the fourth. I want to be just on the subs while I'm on the trip because even taking 20 norcos and a shit load of kratom a day, I feel weak and tired and not a nice person to be around. I remember when I first started suboxone in 2012 I felt great for the first couple months and them felt like a zombie. My questions to you guys out there is, what should I do. My doc is pushing the subs, I want to do the subs, but on a quick taper. I'm afraid of instant withdrawals because I'm on two different opioids that have possibly different half life's. My last norco/kratom dose was around 6:00pm and stupid me, I decided to get some coke to make it a fun filled weekend. I did a couple lines since then and I feel fine physically, but now I through that into the mix, and I don't know if I can mix suboxone with coke, or start a suboxone treatment and do two days of coke. I've never done that one before. I'm also prescribed 1mg Xanax at 3 times a day, and .5mgs of colonopin every night before bed. I have the ammo to go cold turkey with the loperamide and Xanax, but I don't want my friends and family seeing me go through withdrawals while were away. The suboxone might prevent that and make it a good trip, or at least make me feel somewhat normal. Any help out with some of these questions would be awesome. I leave tomorrow morning at 11:00 and don't know if I should rough out the first day or half or day and take the suboxone, or just be a lump on a log and stick with the norcos and kratom. Please help. B

Thank you very much for your answer. I just didnt understand why my doctor prescribed so many, 45-8mg strips because he knows i wanted to do a few week taper. I guess its not bad having more then not enough. Thank you for your help and advice