I Have Schizophrenia And I Take Abilify (highest Dose), Benztropine

Question : I have schizophrenia and I take abilify (highest dose), benztropine 1mg, and invega (highest dose) for treatment. I went through post schizophrenic depression and now the only symptoms left are avolition and thought broadcasting. I hope those symptoms too will disappear in months. However, I want to address my problems with thinking, since my psychiatrist typically never talk with patients for too long unless she's seeing a new patient. I think a lot, usually while pacing (I feel the urge to walk around, I don't know why, pacing seems to improve my thinking), and I sometimes think not because I want to solve some problmes in life or to make decisions, but because everything (reality) is a bit confusing to me and I need to clear things out. And what's weird is that I sometimes makes stuffs out just to make sure that everything make sense to me and than later realize all my thinking was BS, even worse than a waste of time because now my head is messed up even further. And usually I can't stop this thinking-torment thing as if I became an unstoppable, helpless zombie because this thinking-pacing thing makes me feel good and comfortable. Usually, thinking is hard work, but I think most of my thinking is delusional because I am making thoughts up just to feel good while maipulating reality just to feel better about reality. So what I think about my thinking is that there's two types of reality in a mind of a healthy person - inner reality and outer reality - but I as a schizophrenic mess around with objective facts (outer reality) and my inner hopes, fears, desires, etc. (inner reality). I manipulate what's real and factual just to force everything to make sense to me and I think I resemble some kind of a schizophrenic homeless drug addict thinking himself as a son of Jesus or some great figure because confronting reality as a homeless is painful. What do you think? Should I stop all thinking whatsoever until this schizophrenia thing improves? Is that what I should do? Fueling my thinking will only makes things worse, right?

I have schizophrenia and I take abilify (highest dose), benztropine 1mg, and invega (highest dose) for treatment. I went through post schizophrenic depression and now the only symptoms left are avolition and thought broadcasting. I hope those symptoms too will disappear in months. However, I want to address my problems with thinking, since my psychiatrist typically never talk with patients for too long unless she's seeing a new patient. I think a lot, usually while pacing (I feel the urge to walk around, I don't know why, pacing seems to improve my thinking), and I sometimes think not because I want to solve some problmes in life or to make decisions, but because everything (reality) is a bit confusing to me and I need to clear things out. And what's weird is that I sometimes makes stuffs out just to make sure that everything make sense to me and than later realize all my thinking was BS, even worse than a waste of time because now my head is messed up even further. And usually I can't stop this thinking-torment thing as if I became an unstoppable, helpless zombie because this thinking-pacing thing makes me feel good and comfortable. Usually, thinking is hard work, but I think most of my thinking is delusional because I am making thoughts up just to feel good while maipulating reality just to feel better about reality. So what I think about my thinking is that there's two types of reality in a mind of a healthy person - inner reality and outer reality - but I as a schizophrenic mess around with objective facts (outer reality) and my inner hopes, fears, desires, etc. (inner reality). I manipulate what's real and factual just to force everything to make sense to me and I think I resemble some kind of a schizophrenic homeless drug addict thinking himself as a son of Jesus or some great figure because confronting reality as a homeless is painful. What do you think? Should I stop all thinking whatsoever until this schizophrenia thing improves? Is that what I should do? Fueling my thinking will only makes things worse, right?