Thanks for the reply doc.
1. I have been having
OCD mostly from childhood as far as I can remember, though I'm not sure. Continuous, persistent thoughts about events, incidents or any thing for that matter; mostly negative. And I mostly have obsessive thoughts rather than compulsive actions. I had also skipped my 10th prelim exams due to severe anxiety and taken a drop from my engineering in the middle due to anxiety and panic attacks before prelims; though I came back and continued. The most severe cases have been when I was in my college, and I answered very few in the viva exam, I was worried sick that they may not fail me. Kept on getting thoughts after thoughts and anxiety; so much so that I went to college the next day and confirmed that I wouldn't fail. This happened every year. Also back in school, if i got low marks, I would regret over it again and again and feel miserable, while other kids would say just leave it, it's ok. This is just one of many examples. Another one is checking or thinking about the lock of the door.
2.
Social Anxiety is just like it is. Even walking on the street; though it is mild. However, if I cross the street, or pass a group or crowd of people I feel that people are watching me or scrutinizing me. Even back in college, I had a tough time passing the quadrangle or in fests. And I used to stay away from most people to since I'm thin-skined too. While giving speeches etc., I used to get what I call social anxiety attacks, where I used to lose control and think as if everyone is looking at me, finding me funny etc. This usually happened after a minor ridicule or remark. Now in work, it is more tough since I have to give output too, and am not able to do so due to lack of focus and constant fear. I work in a team, and am always scared/anxious to ask something or help since I fear ridicule or shame in front of others. And I dread my boss since he scolds other employees too. This is taking a toll on my performance, and my boss scolds and the vicious circle continues. It has been 2 months since I started working and it's my first job. I also get tremors. Another notable point : Sometimes when talking online, if i get a late response or something, rather than thinking the other person is busy, i get strong conviction thoughts that he/she is avoiding me. Also get thoughts of being cheated etc. sometimes.
3. The medicines that I have taken so far over the last 3 years or so include solaze, mozep 0.5, sizodon, propanol, paxidep CR 12.5, daxid 50 mg,
serenace 0.25/0.5 mg, fluvoxin. I do not remember the potency of all of them, since prescription are lost due to change of residence. I also have a habit of stopping their usage when they cause a lot of
drowsiness, since i had college or work. Currently I am not taking any medicines.
My social anxiety and OCD are completely independent of each other.
Thanks