Suggest Treatment For Severe Depression, Anxiety And Suicidal Behaviour

Posted on Thu, 28 Jan 2016

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Question : Dr Seikhoo Bishnoi. I ended because I didnt know what else to say. I take gabapentin in high doses because it helps me sleep through the sadness. i have done everything i can to deal with the loneliness to no avail. being with people only makes it worse. people trying to engage me or interest me in what they are doing but its not working any more. i am taking a homeopathic on my daughter's advise because she thinks it will help me make the dopamine and seratonin i am so depleted in...i don't know it is the buidling blocks my adrenals are so depleted in...i am tired of suffering so much and being lonely for XXXXXXX and XXXXXXX ...death or sleep are the only relief. I am going to let XXXXXXX go up to see XXXXXXX before I send the email. he can go on the 21st of february...i was thinking of stabbing myself today in the heart but that would hurt too much. i thought of slicing my wrists..if I had a gun i would shoot myself in the head....anything is better than living like this. i don't want to see or talk to anyone but XXXXXXX and XXXXXXX XXXXXXX preferably.....Ive been thinking of drinking again but I hate the taste of wine and beer is expensive. I cant get my hands on enough drugs but using them together would work. It all depends on how much money it costs.

Answered by Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (2 hours later)

Brief Answer:
Please accept the reality.

Detailed Answer:
Hello again.

I am understanding your problem but my answer will be same. Please move out of things related to XXXXXXX Try to forget him and with passage of time you'll see that your loneliness is improving. XXXXXXX has not come back and this truth you should accept. You have XXXXXXX XXXXXXX both are taking care of you and don't want to loose you. Why would you kill yourself for a man who doesn't even realise that you think about him.

If homeopathic treatment is resulting in improvement then even I'd advise for that treatment. Please continue to relax yourself and avoid sleeping pills.

Thanks.

Above answer was peer-reviewed by : Dr. Naveen Kumar

Follow up: Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (1 hour later)

XXXXXXX doesn't even know that I think about him? How can that be? why wouldn't he think I still love him? Unless he has forgotten about me....but if that were true then why did he get a lawyer to help him with the injunction against me? This only makes me feel worse. I cannot stop thinking about him....he loved me once deeply or so he said many times and I can't stop loving him...xxxxx and XXXXXXX are not with me and I cant afford to live here anymore...i just dont have the money..it would be better if I were dead. i miss XXXXXXX so much. If XXXXXXX was here maybe it would be better but there is no way that I will ever forget XXXXXXX I can't even if I wanted to which is why I want to die. Why do you want me to forget him? I can't do that you know that right?I keep hoping that after the injunction ends XXXXXXX will come back. XXXXXXX will go up to see him and maybe he will talk to him. Maybe he won't but maybe he will.If he becomes threatening XXXXXXX will just call the police but I hope he won't. I won't email him until XXXXXXX goes up to see him.
You know I am losing interest in everything right? I can't concentrate on anything and am losing interest in the few things I had been interested in....just becoming very apathetic....no interest in living anymore or going to temple nothing at all anymore...

Answered by Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (9 hours later)

Brief Answer:
Try to accept his illness.

Detailed Answer:
Hello again,

He is suffering from Schizophrenia and have delusions that he might harm you. He has never tried to contact you in past year so I don't think killing yourself for him is a good thing. Try to accept his illness.
XXXXXXX is with you, though he is not staying with you but at least he cares about you. Try to appreciate this fact. You can hope but at the same time try to regain your confidence.
XXXXXXX can go to his place and can meet and talk to him once injunction ends. This might help in evaluating the mood. In my opinion he would not call the police but try not to mail him repeatedly. This could be taken in wrong manner.

Thanks, Hope for the best.

Above answer was peer-reviewed by : Dr. Vaishalee Punj

Follow up: Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (2 hours later)

what do you think if i went to michael's store with XXXXXXX after the injunction ends? Would you flip out and call the police if he saw me or might he be glad to see me? XXXXXXX thinks and one counselor thought that maybe he is lonely and tired and might not do anything bad....I am somewhat afraid of him but think he was afraid of going to the hospital...all I want to do is lie in bed and do nothing. i don't even want to see XXXXXXX and am having a hard time going outside at all.. just wish my life was over...I don't want to see anyone not xxxxxxxxxxx and am thinking of telling her not to come today. I don't want to talk to anyone just cry over XXXXXXX If i stay by myself then I won't have to talk and try to be friendly I just want to be left alone except for XXXXXXX

Answered by Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (10 minutes later)

Brief Answer:
He will not show bad behaviour.

Detailed Answer:
Hello again

Though this can't be predicted with certainty but in my opinion he would not call the police or will not show bad reaction. Though he might show indifferent behaviour but I don't think he would show very bad reaction.

Don't feel lonely. Talk to XXXXXXX or XXXXXXX because this would reduce your pain and improve your mood. Don't stop XXXXXXX to come to your place. If she would come this will help to improve your mood.

Thanks.

Above answer was peer-reviewed by : Dr. Chakravarthy Mazumdar

Follow up: Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (5 minutes later)

why would he be indifferent if at one time he deeply loved me? I am confused..did you mean to say that he wouldn't act bad but he wouldn't be happy to see me either? How could he love me and be indifferent to me when he was so upset that he filed an injunction of harassment against me? I don't understand. What do you mean by indifferent? Just that he might not show much reaction either way? How can he love me and be indifferent? In fact how could he love me and react so violently he had to file an injnction

Answered by Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (4 minutes later)

Brief Answer:
He would not show bad reaction

Detailed Answer:
Hello again

This is because he is suffering from schizophrenia and apathy is one of common negative symptoms in such cases. Though I am not saying all this with certainty. He would not act bad but he might become happy or might not show any reaction. This is my assumption and I might be wrong also. He used to love you but then developed hallucinations so his behaviour can't be predicted.

Thanks.

Above answer was peer-reviewed by : Dr. Chakravarthy Mazumdar

Follow up: Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (2 hours later)

i don't understand why he never tried to dismiss the injunction. Unless maybe he was afraid he might harm me in some way...I am having a really hard week about all of this. I am not interested in anything at all not anything....I feel so much anxiety I can barely hold myself together....I didn't sleep much after 4:30 and just want to lie in bed all day....i am trying to find a place for XXXXXXX and I to live but am so apathetic and having a hard time concentrating on anything...so afraid of everything too..i love XXXXXXX so much and have such a hard time trying to understand why he hurt me so very badly when he said he loved me. Our love came to such an abrupt end. Why doesn't it hurt him the way it continues to hurt me? Lack of insight I don't understand it. So if I had filed an injunction against him it wouldn't have hurt him? He actually tried to talk to me when I filed one on him but the judge wouldnt let him talk to me. I would give anything if he had....it would have saved me a year of pain and suffering....time isn't healing this. XXXXXXX was the one person who understood and cared about me when no one not even my children did and now he is gone. I hurt all over again...I don't care about anyone like I did XXXXXXX not ever before and never will again...I hurt more now than when it first happened....I am just not getting over him and guess I never will....it is taking all I have to not email him. what stops me is that he doesn't love me anymore so it doesn't matter....maybe he can't love me

Answered by Dr. Seikhoo Bishnoi (19 hours later)

Brief Answer:
Accept his illness

Detailed Answer:
Hello again

His mood changed suddenly and you are suffering badly, this is not your fault. He developed schizophrenia and paranoid delusions so this resulted in increased suffering and pain. He is also suffering but as he has no insight so he is not realising it. Try not to blame yourself for all this. Accept the situation and try to find happiness in other things of possible.

Thanks

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Above answer was peer-reviewed by : Dr. Chakravarthy Mazumdar