Are Isolated Life And Being Attracted To Violent People A Psychotic Problem?

Okay so i think theres something wrong with me. I think im psychotic, im a very isolated person even with my friends, i think of the weirdest stuff, sad things like death i either laugh at or just dont care for even with family members, and i dont think it would bother me if someone were to die in front of me. I also think people that are scary amd angry are attractive, like if someone is doing something violent to someone else not like bdsm or anything i mean severe violence i think its hot. Another reason is because im very young and it doesn t seem normal and I ve read my fair shares of clinical psychology books