Belly Button Bleeding, Penis Looks Crooked, Blood In Catheter. Why Is It Happening ?

hi have a problem with a seugery i had a few years ago. my belly buton started bleeding, i went to the hospital and was sent home to take antibionices for 1 month , i guess my insides were infected. i Go for surgery,and something
went wrong, i can still see blood going through my catheter, i ask why is it still coming out like that ,i was went for days. i was told,its normal. i went to a doctor because it burned when i pee'd and my peanis looks like its gone, its crooked and as thin as my finger. i cant stay hard i get hard, and its like a crooked little finger. we i got to pee,ill try and go, its inside of me, so i leak all over my self. all i no , is that i never had any problemes before. i i was hard every day, at one time, id be so hard, i had to get it done. now he plays hiden seek. im alwas home because im to embarest,of myself,i dont like to be around other people, all i do is think about it and its makes me sick. can you tell me somethig?