Hi My Cerebellum Is Disappearing, I Am 64 Years Of

Hi my cerebellum is disappearing, I am 64 years of age and nine years ago we all thought I had a stroke, the first thing that happened to me is my voice went slow and slightly slurred, nine months later my left arm froze then four years after that my left foot cured under and I was walking on the side of my foot. Now I am told by my Neurologist that taking antidepressant pills will help. I am a very strong believer of brain power, and I have told my neurons to fix my left foot which they have, but I have to remind them keep it up. Now I have decided to tell my neurons to split up with 3/4 going to my cerebellum and 1/4 of them to stay at my foot. My question is if I feel a pressure build-up in my cerebellum is it a good sign or what? Sorry I am flat broke at this time so can not pay for your answer.