How To Cure Depression Permanently?

For my whole life I have had major depression. My family doctor disgnosed me when I was fourteen but I have not seen him sence and I do not take medication. I really don't like to. I have recently done a lot of research on it because it seems to be getting worse with more symptoms showing and I didn't know what was wrong with me. My whole body aches when I sit or stand for more than a couple minutes, I am literally constantly tired (I cannot remember the last time I felt fully awake), I have no will to do anything and while at work I cry because I don't want to deal with people. This is all on top of the usual crying for no reason, mood swings, and thoughts (but definitely no actions) of self harm. I recently got let go from my job after they had already cut me down to part time because I was so miserable. Now I cannot afford to cab into town to see a local doctor about this and I certainly can't afford to go in to follow up. I need financial assistance but I can't even get that without spending money I don't have to go see a doctor. What can I do?