I Have Been Suffering From Negative Thoughts Like Lack Of

I have been suffering from negative thoughts like lack of concentration ,forgetting things, suicidal thoughts,hopelessness , blaming myself for everything ,lack of interest in work and leisure and need of isolation from past 1 year from the day my wife got pregnant and an unwanted child.also the condition in the business had detoriated. Intially for the first 6 months I was very quiet from what I was usually.later on I consulted a psychiatrist but I didn't take the medications . After 2 months I felt I'm better now but I haven't completely recovered. So please advice me so that I can lead a normal life