On April 6, 2015 I Had To Have Cpr And

On April 6, 2015 I had to have cpr and got put on life support for approx. 3 days. I was diagnosed with Pres. Syndrome. After staying most of April in the hospital I was released. I made a decision to get off of 120 mg. of morphine. In the middle of December I went to the hospital telling the doctor that something was wrong with my brain and that I was going to go home shoot myself in the head. They released me and my roommate came in to find me with one gun up to my head and another gun in my other hand but it was not up to my head. What happened that night? I do not have any memory of the events just like when I had pres in April.