I have been on Metadone for 20yrs i suffer from A.D.H.D and mayjour deppression,when i was a child i was sexualy abused by familly. Since then i suffer insomnia and bad reacuring dreams and hang ups like cant handle people standing behind me as i was raped from behind it let f me with damaged coxixs,i wake up with same night mares since 6 yrs old im 45, i have anxiety attacks and wake having muscle spazams nightly.I Have been usinng valium 5m roche,as its the only thing that helps calm me down and helps my en somnia. When i cant get a script i self medicate with grass nightly.Why do doctors freak out wwhen i ask forscript???? PS tryed all anti depp,only thing works valium.Where can i find doctor to prescribe monthly. Thank you!!