Suggest Treatment For A Spinal Condition

I underwent a spinal fusion in 1992, 2 splints of bone removed from right hip through one incision, graphted to L5-S1 and the fascate joints removed from L5, The surgeon was ready to close when the magnifying lense on his head fell off into my back hitting my spine, as a result the wind was knocked out of me, I actually thought something fell from the ceiling(like a brick or something) I was awake when it happened, I was told that they brought me to, to make sure that I could move my hands and feet, and that I was pain free. I wiggled my hands and feet and felt no pain at that point until the surgeons magnifying lense hit my spine and dropped into the left side of my back. As the surgeon removed the lense he dropped it again in the left side. I heard him say the lense broke when it hit the bone, and had to retrieve the glass. He told me not to move at all. The pain was excruciating, but I knew it was very important that I didnt move. He took the glass out (I hope he got all). I was then put back out. I developed a fever that night of 104.5 and was not able to have a bowel movement for about 2 weeks. Following the surgery the next day I couldnt remember what happened, I knew something happened, but did not know what. I was told by the surgeon and my family doctor the surgery was a success, that I was asleep and I probably had been dreaming. I believed in that. I was in back brace for 9 months. After the brace was off, I was very stiff, not able to put on my own socks or bend to put on shoes, it remained very difficult for me to manover. It would take years of complications, before I realized that I had been lied to. 10 yrs passed when I remembered just a small detail, but was very disterbed by it , so I asked my doctor , her answer was that I was asleep. Distraut and crying, I asked her to tell me the truth. She told me that the lense broke , he took out the glass, repaired the damage,it had been 10 yrs and there wasnt anything anyone could do. I was devasted at first, but my doctor convinced me that everything was OK. I left my doctor almost 4 yrs ago. I find myself having panic attacks everyday, because I don't know the damage and what the complications are. I was 31 yrs young when I had the surgery and I'm now 49. A few weeks before surgery I had bloodwork done, in which everything was bang on, I was very fit, exercised every day and always did even dispite the pain. I was good candidate for surgery they said. I Know my blood colesterol was at 3 just prior to surgery, and strangely it was at 7.8 after surgery. I was told diet was the reason. The doctor would not put me on medication. The lowest I could get it was 7.3. My colesterol remained between 7.3 and 7.8. Other health professionals questioned it, and even told me that they were concerned because of the lenght of time it had been elevated for. 3 1/2 years ago I had chest pains so bad, my doctor finally sent me to cardiologist and he put me on 10mg crestor. My white blood cells were also slightly elevated, and my temperature as well. In february my new doctor (which knows nothing about the botched surgery) told me that she needed to increase the crestor to 20mg and why she waited to tell me that my white blood cellls were at (12) in November 2009, (17)December 2009,(22) in January 2010, and (33) in February 2010. August 3, 2010 my husband rushed me to hospital with fever 102.5. I had fever for long time, huvering off and on for yrs , between 99 and 101. I was told that that was probably normal for me, I don.t ever recall having a fever ever in all my life. I had constant urinery tract infections and respatory infections ever since the surgery. I remember my doctor telling me that there appears to be an infection somewhere in my body, and that she couldnt put her finger on it, that she would give me cipro and told me at one point she might have to put me on antibiotics for 1 year. That never happened. Im very concerned that now anything that happens to me Is because of that surgery and I am now terrified of having any surgery at all. What are the complications as a result of this surgery and how can I get help.