I'm a 24yrs Indian woman, 5'2", 52kg having a Bachelor degree. I don't have any significant medical history except high minus power in both eyes. I go to gym but I'm average looking & don't have any boyfriend. I was not a bad student, in spite I could not acquire a job that I would like to do.......I did a job for 1 yr & then left it......in fact after my resign, the project went off......from the college days, I started to dream for civil service but as I'm a tecnological graduate it was little difficult for me.....ultimately I made my mind but that I had to earn because my father was retired & he could not help me huge.......however, doing that job I gathered some amount......now I've started the preparation alone, not joined any coaching till.....like to join in future but good coachings are all in Delhi & I can't affort living there......it's almost impossible to qualify in the exam but I can't leave it now........very often I fear if I don't get any job how will I survive!!! it makes me very depressed, I try to recover but it comes back frequently & makes me wild & sometimes I thik of suicide........still I couldn't be too brave to do so & what I situation I'm suffering from I can't describe......I don't have much friends & I'm not very talkative to all & there's nobody in my family who can see things from my view.......in fact, in many cases, my opinion contradicts them & I bear my sorrow all alone.......I'm alone, that's not my problem, I've chosen to be lonely but I want to live well with mental peace.........can you help me? sorry, I've written a lot.