hi doctor,
now-a-dayas i'm lossing my temper very fast...cant control it...though i'm short-tempered frm childhood.Can't sleep properly...a bad headech occured
durring this time....i lose my confidence level...i cant make my mom happy...all the problems happened in my mom's life, just b'coz of me...she was a
divorcee...but my father(step) is not behave properly with us...frm Class-V, i grown up,watching their qurrale everyday...Now i'm an Animator--was working in mumbai,but as my mother fall ill i cant continue there anymore,so back to kolkata...got a job here also...but for some financial cause that office closed for last few months... so i'm in home now...but my mom force me to join the course,which help me to get a govt.job....but i'm not interest in that..she cant undertand that. Whatever goes wrong to her life,she blemed me for that. Recently,one of my pet lost,when going towards my cats yearly checkup to animal hospital....this time i suggest to go their(cat) hospital,instead of calling the doctor home,as we did earlier...Now,as the pet is lost,she make me guilty...all the times she cry n tell everybody that she lost her(the cat) for my fault...and as i cant cry and cant say anything ,she think that i do it intentionaly....i feel very bad. Though my family is a broken family, its very few to look that,we are talking with each other. But now -a-days its become horrible...i've a boyfriend,may be we get married next year...our family know each other...but as these thinks happen, I dont want to marry him...b'coz,in future if something goes wrong,then everyone bleamed me...i loss my confidence...sometime i think suicide is the way go get rid of dis things...sometimes think that escaped frm home will be better....what to do...am i going mad???plz help me...