I am on lexapro and wellbutrin. Im a nurse, ptsd, daughter raped son with hiv, another son transgendered,to female, experienced first hand sandy hook massacre, cant deal with one more set back. Cant cope with anymore responsibility, raised 5 kds all grown, husband irresponsible and Im picking up the pieces of his financial neglect, every tiny thing makes me want to die. Not kill myself, just be done with my 57 year old life. I want to be happy again. After all the crap happened to my kids I was able to just be grateful to wake up. Now I dont want to wake up. Cant afford therapy. Been there done that. Need better meds or a death cocktail. Only want a psychiatrist