Hi, thanks for the query; based on the description provided, you are suffering from social anxiety disorder or social phobia which is excessive fears of unfavorable scrutiny by superiors, strangers etc. Now treamtnet for social phobia is multi modal consisting of medications (SSRI group drugs) + Cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT). CBT alone can also help you get rid of social phobia symptoms; but CBT alone takes too long for symptom relief; also CBT is very expensive & needs an expert Psychologist for teaching you the skills & supervise your progress. Hence for a rapid relief, do consider taking SSRI medications (escitalopram, paroxetine, sertraline, fluoxetine etc.) as they are side effect free, will help you boost your confidence, reduce your actual situation performance anxiety etc. Plus you can also use sos anxiolytics like etizolam, clonazepam which help you control on the spot distressing anxiety symptoms. You can start a crude form of CBT called as role play all by yourself; where you can volunteer to give short speech, story telling etc. in front of a small social gathering like party, family union etc. Do consult a Psychiatrist for medications & CBT referral. You can get back to me for any further help. Good luck