Hello,
I understand your concern and I am sorry for your loss.
The fact that you have been taking
Eltroxin means that you have a low functioning thyroid. In
hypothyroidism,
thyroid hormone replacement through medication is for life and I do not understand why you decided to go off Eltroxin. You are not going through
withdrawal symptoms, you are actually experiencing hypothyroidism symptoms. On top of this, you have been grieving, which makes things even worse. So, as a first step I recommend you see your doctor and tell them the reason why you went of your medication, have some tests in order to check your thyroid hormone levels and get a renewed prescription of Eltroxin or an alternative drug.
Unfortunately, hypothyroidism is not something that goes away on its own, so you are going to have to be compliant with your medication.
In order to deal with your grief, I recommend you make life style changes that will make you get a new perspective and will renew your outlook on life. Healthy eating, physical and social activity are things that greatly help to overcome grief.
Wishing you good health and all the best.