Suggest Treatment To Wean Off Methadone

I'M ON METHADONE FOR PAIN ..MY PAIN MGMT DR. RETIRED AND I FOUND MY SELF AT THE METH CLINIC ON 113 MILLIGRAMS PER DAY..I GET 6 TAKE HOME BOTTLES AND WOULD LIKE TO DO MY OWN TAPPER THEY DON'T SEEM TO WANT TO LET ANY OF US GO WE ARE THERE INCOME :(,!! i HAVE NEVER TESTED DIRTY FOLLOW ALL PROGRAM RULES YET WHEN i ASK TO GO DOWN 2 LITTLE MILLIGRAMS THE TAKE MUCH MORE OUT TO SCARE ME ..THE ONLY WAY I'LL BE ABLE TO GET OUT OF THERE IS TO DO IT MY SELF..i JUST CANT FIGURE OUT HOW MUCH IS IN EACH BOTTLE THEY ADD DIFFERENT AMOUNTS OF WATER TO EACH BOTTLE..i THOUGHT i MIGHT POUR ALL OF THEM INTO A SMALL PITCHER AND EVEN THE BOTTLES OUT & AND MARK THE LINE ON EACH BOTTLE ,THEN TAKE A BABY ORAL SYRINGE AND TAKE 5 ML OUT OF EACH DOSE AND SEE HOW I FEEL,WHILE TAPERING EACH WEEK UNTILL LOW ENOUGH TO GO INTO REHAB, THEY WONT EXCEPT ANYONE ON a DOES THIS HIGH-AND i BELIEVE THEY KNOW THIS AND THIS IS THE REASON WERE ALL ON HIGH DOSES :(..PLEASE HELP ?? ANY IDEAS??