Hey ya ll, I am a single mother of three amazing children. 37 yrs old. Suffered with severe endometriosis my whole life, was told I d never have any kids. Well, I have soon-to-be 14 yr old, just had a baby 2 yrs and four months ago. Went on birthcontrol because the doctor that told me after my son, ID NEVER BE ABLE TO CONCEIVE ANOTHER CHILD after 9 surgeries and all the scar tissue, I never thought Id have baby #2, well one year later I am in the doctor for some stomach pain, etc. and I find out I was already 3 mos prego on BC! Ok, so I had my daughter about six months ago. They have tested my thyroid and it s fine. I can t seem to lose the weight, infact Ive gained a few pounds and I am on phentermine to lose weight! I lose hair like crazy, I am VERY SHORT FUSED, the smallest of insult or joke at me SETS ME OFF! Infact the smallest of inconveinence period sets me off. I am snippy at everyone and very defensive and at this moment now listening to me describe myself, I am teared up! I refuse to feel sorry for myself for my situation, as it takes two to tango. But I cried when I am alone, and dry up as soon as someone comes around. Im always so drained, and I realize two babies will do that to you. But this is more, I just feel so sad all the time. I WOULD NEVER HURT MYSELF OR MY CHILDREN! EVER! I just want this feeling to go away. The father of my two youngest walked out on us the night of our son s first bday, and little did I know I was already four days pregnant with my daughter. So the drama is definetly there, but I am handling it the best I can. I dont get financial help from him and that is ok cause it would put him in the kids lives and he doesnt want to be. So my question is....Is this post pardum depression? I never dealt with it in my past two pregnancies, and I dont remember feeling like this before. Please help! Thank you