Hi I ve been dealing with a lot the last year and a half. I was just nearing the end of Menopause , I m 51 years old and in the end of 2013 my partner/Best friend committed Suicide. His problems seem to appear when we return from a 2 week vacation. Only to find our apartment was flooded and we had to move. He was so against Suicide that s another reason I still don t understand . Since his death I have gained weight,have no energy to do anything.getting up ,never mind showering is a job . I only leave home when I have to,pay bills, go grocery shopping etc. Otherwise I sit inside and don t socialize except texting. I am not suicidal . I just don t have any energy or insensitive to do anything. I wish I could have some energy or routine but I don t and if I did I wouldn t follow it anyway! I just can t get it together!! What can I do to get my old self back I ve never been so weak or depressed in my life