Hi,
Thanks for asking your query at health care magic.
I understand your concern. I am Dr Alok Sinha, MD Psychiatry from India. I will try to help you with best of my effort.
I can understand the pain and
stress of loosing your job. May be with intention to reduce your stress you started masturbating. But it appears that it has gone now up to a level of addiction. Let me take this opportunity to educate you a little about the habit of
masturbation.
Masturbation is a sexual gratifying act. At the time of orgasm there is release of euphoric (feel good) hormones (
Dopamine and Endorphins) at brain which is recognized as reward by the brain. These feel good hormones makes a happy state of mind for some time. As a result, mind demands same and same experience again and again. This produces intense desire (craving) to commit the act repeatedly. At last it becomes an illness more than a habit when person gets involved in uncontrolled masturbation.
Every person in stress adjust with the situation as per his coping capabilities. Few cope up well with situation and few try to run away from the situation and indulge in mind diverting activities. This is a kind of mind diverting act which may be proved helpful initially. Your condition appears to be the same.
But definitely this is not your fate, which you want. Isn't it? You need much more important things to do in your life. You have to try hard to get yourself back on the track of life again.
I strongly suggest you to take professional help of a
psychiatrist who may prescribe you
psychotherapy and few medicines like
SSRI to help you get rid of this habit.
Hope this answers your question. I wish you all the best. I want you back in life.