Hi dear
I have gone through your question and understood your concern.
In my opinion your problem is
Post traumatic stress disorder or post-operative stress disorder.
Some patients even if they recover physically, their mental health suffers and they experience sadness,lost of interest in everything they did before surgey, fatigue or anxiety--all of which are symptoms of post-operative
depression.
Depression following surgery is a frequent occurrence.It can be credited to a number of physical factors after an operation, including reactions to
anesthesia and narcotic painkillers, pain and discomfort, or an undetermined biological process.
Patients experiencing post-operative depression may need medical or psychological treatment to recover.
So my advice for you is to
consult a Psychiatrist and/or a
psychologist because you need support to recover.
Hope i have answer to your questions.If you have further questions,i will be happy to help.(you can ask me at HealthCareMagic at my private link: bit.do/hcm-Dr-Xhardo.)
Wish you good health.
Dr.Xhardo