Hi My Name Is Katherine Scott Ive Had 4 Spinal

hi my name is katherine scott ive had 4 spinal lumbar fusions 3 failed and spinal reconstuctive surgery which has left me with severe inner thigh and hip and groin pain in my left leg went to gyn for ultrasound it doesnt have problems with female issues the pain is so severe that i can only walk for a short period of time left thigh no sensation to the skin the pain is absolutely differint from my chronic lumbar pain i can no longer drive groin hurts so ridiculasly bad my neurosurgen says theres nothing he can do about it i wish jesus would let me die i have made several attemps to kill myself that i ended up in a nuthouse no one understands how much pain i am in pleaser help me i am desperate im sorry im on disability and make 688.00$ i have 10$ left in my checking account im sorry i wasted your time. this life is not worth living