Never Mind Lost Job 12/06 Been Fighting For Disability Since

never mind lost job 12/06 been fighting for disability since '08, just denied again. I had a Dr. tell me when I was 23 if I didn't slow down & take a hard look at like I would live to see my 24th birthday. I've killed myself my whole life working 2 or 3 jobs or more to put myself through hight school and community college and killed both my hands at 25 at the Marrior River Center Hotel. I was a scratch baker for over10 years until I got carpel tunnel in both hands. I was in a severe care wreck when I was 9 in a head on collesion with no seat belt and tried to go through the windshield. I have had chronic neck and back pain ever since. I killed myself working in a country that doesn't care about Americans, my job as failed me, the health system screwed me over and now I have been told I have lost my disability case I have been fighting for since 2008, I have spend my life savings on medical bills full coverage auto insurance and have been beaten to death by the USA. I've worked harder than anyone I know my age and I've done everything mentally, physically and emotionally possible to make it in this world. A doctor told me to slow down and take a hard look at like when I was 23 or I wasn't going to live to my 24th birthday. I never thought I'd live past 18 coming from an abused home with a mother who hated me, told me I as nothing, nobody and would never be anybody and hated the day I was born. I should of applied for disabilityat age 9 or 25 when I killed my hands the same dr. that helped David Robinson of the San Antonio Spurs could help me but not some poor kid on workman's comp but no like the stupid person I am I literally KILLED myself working 2, 3 or 4 job at time time trying to make it in the USA who does not care about it citizens, their health or well being. As long as your a hard working, law abiding tax paying citizen your health does not matter. Only the last two jobs I had in my entire life even had health insurance, couldn't afford the copayment when I needed a doctor or the prescriptions when they wrote them. I have spent every penny I've ever earned on paying 30% of my paycheck to taxes, state, federal taxes, and dental and medical insurance. I haven't eaten in weeks and lay here in chronic pain praying to GOD to please take me to the other side after having my best friend of 30 years die of Cancer in my hands I would of given anything to have traded places with her, she a life and family and I have NOTHING. All the principals of our founding fathers were degrated 100's of years ago, there bodies all turned to dust from rolling over in the graves over the dreams of once proud Americans. The Government bleed me dry years ago and waited until I turned 50 to " offer me a deal" which doesn't mean if I ever worked a day in my entire life IT DOES NOT MATTER THE THE GOVERNMENT OR THE AMERICAN PEOPLE. The values of American have been gone for decades and like I was told in 2007 I should of have moved to Canada then, I would of had health care in 3 months. Instead I lie here dieing everyday and it can't come fast enough America, the Government and the Health system is full of crooks and hyprocrits and care nothing about anyone else but THEMSELVES may the Devil take them all as soon as possible. I'm dead, been dead for years now and NO one in this country cares about anything but themselves, God forgive me for always going above, beynond the call of duty and being one of the last decent human beings on this Earth. This is how we are rewarded by taking everything we have worked so had for and the dishonering of the truth, justice and the American way, the Devil truly runs the Earth and there are no honest, good, helpful and truthful people left in this world anymore. Please take me now, I tried to get help since 2006 with medical care in this country and it is a complete joke, while the rich get richer and the poor get poorer and die by the millions everyday. Thank you USA for taking every penny I have ever earned to try to ge help the my health care since I lost my job 12/15/06 and bleeding me dry of every cent to try to get the diagnosises and health care I need. EPIC FAILURE I have spent untold thousands, tens of thousand of dollars of health care and trying to keep a roof over my head. The American dream to have your own house I have paid someone else's mortgage for in their name and spent tens of thosands of dollars in my own money for home repair and imporvement because I'm a STUPID LOYAL AMERICAN who has ALWAYS done the right thing NO MATTER what. At least if I was a convicted prisoner I would have the medical care I need and three meals a day and not freezing to death because I can't afford the heating bill with NO JOB OR HELP IN AMERICA. Work hard in school, work hard at work, kill yourself working until your back, neck, hands, arms, shoulders, elbows, knees, ankles and dieing on an operating table because your PPO wasn't in the office for two days and haven't had a normal bowel movement and being in incontient since 11/02 and chronic back, neck, joint, neuropathy CONSUME the hell on earth you live in and take untold amounts of pills from the big pharmacutical companys that generate trillions of money per year of the backs of the poor 99% of Americans. I wish they could all live decades in our shoes to know the PAIN, AGONY and hell on Earth the rest of us go through VC