Question: ok, Hi, i been using drifferent kind of drugs for the past 10 years, i start with cocaine, then crack, exctasis, pain killers and lately i been using meth, i dont like uppers cuz i get anxiety attacs and i end up in the E.R. but i still used it cuz when ,i can get xanax, ativan or any downer so i feel more safe... anyways, im tired of drugs, im tired of my life cuz my work, and also im a really nerveous person, my head is thinking 24/7 with no stop, not eve when im sleeping (sober, i just used drugs 15 days at month, i work every 15 days and that is teh time that i crave drugs, when im drunk, i like downers but i dont know why i keep using meth even if i dont really like it... i recongnice that im a drug addict, but at least i still can controll it cuz when i dont work and im in my house for 15 days i dont use or crave anything, that only happens when im here at work... i wish i can go to a rehab but i cant afford stay away (no working) for a long time cuz im the one who support my familly... my question is, there's any kind off pill or anything that help not to crave drugs? I only crave them when i'm bored at work or when im to stress... im not gonna lie, im a little bit high right now, im at work (out of town) and this stresss me out to much, and naturally im a really nerveous person, my head think and spinn 24/7 and i hate that, i just dont want to think anymore about all the problems around... many times, and rencently, like 2 weeks ago i wrote a latter to my daughther and my partner saying im sorry and good bye because i was gonna end my life, i feel bad, i feel i its pointlees for me stay alive anymore, im just consuming oxigen, that soembody else would be happy to use it and breath the way i do... im taking wealbutrin for depresion for a year already, it help me but i dont really take them every day cuz ialways forgot... im so sorry but im really desperate right now cuz i wanna change my life, i want a happy life next to my daughter and my partner, and the truth i do my best but at the end i always fuck up and i do drugs again... i dont know what to do anymore, im a weak person when it comes to drugs, i always been like that, i need help, i really need it, and i want it but i cant afford to go a rehab, so thats my question, there's anything that help to take away that craving of drugs?? Anything??

Thank you for your answers. Now, about my boredom, I work, and I work 12 hours a day for 15 days straight, I work in a "massage parlor'', It's really bored and stressful cause you have to be inside all the time and also is one of the must stressful job, (worry about cops, robbers and many other stuff) and I notice that when I'm bored or I'm to stress I get those ugly feelings that I want and I need to do any kind of drugs so my mind goes somewhere else so I feel a little bit more release, (I don't think too much) Another thing, I'm 35 years old and since I was little my head's always thinking, but not like a normal person, my head think 24/7, even when I'm sleeping I'm still thinking about so many different problems and stuff... Never in my life (sober) I sleep one single whole night, it take me looong time to fall asleep, I wake up between 5 to 8 times during the night and mostly the time my head is thinking about I have to do this and that and how I'm gonna do it, and what about if something goes wrong and i can't achieve my purpose, my daughter, rent, bills, work, etc... When I'm doing something or talking with somebody I'm always thinking on 2, 3 up to 4 different subject, also I'm loosing my memory really bad, I don't remember staff from the past, like childhood, even what I did last week or few days ago, my friends always have to tell me details about it so i can remember some stuff, it's getting really bad, also since I was around 8 years old my hands always shake and passing the years it's getting worse and worse, mostly my left side, the last two little fingers moves like crazy sometimes, I ask to my doctor a few times but she always say it's normal, for her everything it's normal, but I haven't see people of my age shaking like me... only people with Parkinson. Wow I'm sorry, I didn't notice that I wrote so much to you but I need to tell this to somebody because my doctor never listen what I have to say and probably you can give me some answers. Well thank you for listen, or I better say, thank you for reading. XXXXXXX