hello! I am Ram. I am addicted to masturbation and I have been masturbating since a year almost every day and sometimes 2-3 times a day. If not I feel like I am losing something very valuable in life until I masturbate then I become normal. My brain just keeps on thinking of sex, erotic images and women 24*7. To not to think of them I masturbate and I was at least to be back in my life but now I have to masturbate 2-3 times to forget them. I am fighting with my thoughts all the day I cannot concentrate on any thing all those thoughts filled up my mind and I am really scared how my future is going to be. I have been experiencing severe back pain, and body pains since 2 months. I lost my stamina and I had to leave my body building career because of this addiction. My problems are very little (I think its in starting stage of) memory loss, body aches, depression, loss of sleep, deadly negative thinking sometimes I feel killing myself could be better than thinking such negative things, lost all my confidence and my charisma. Want to get back into my life doc please help. I cannot talk to anyone eye to eye. In one word I am decaying and you are my last hope. Thanks doc. cheers!