Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Gabapentin is used with other medications to prevent and control seizures. It is also used to relieve nerve pain following shingles (a painful rash due to herpes zoster infection) in adults. Gabapentin is known as an anticonvulsant or antiepileptic drug. You are doing it great, but doing it without the advice of your doctor may trigger withdrawal symptoms. But The withdrawal symptoms are not that severe. Once you are taking this medicine, then there is a reason. You have nerve pain or problems related to epilepsy. That is why taking this medicine become important. Please do not underestimate your doctor s judgement. He is always right. Before taking any steps further please get his advice. low grade depression is nothing when you are being treated with gabapentin because it takes care of that too. Once you do not have any symptoms of depression, why are you worrying about it? Just negative thinking can help trigger the depression. please be positive. If you require more of my help in this aspect,Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.