When I was 8 years old, i was diagnosed with ADHD by my family physician, after being referred by the school psychologist. I was initially prescribed Ritalin, but my mother is a devout christian, and refused to accept any treatment other than christ; however, christ has not helped to organize my thoughts, retain visual and audible information, maintain focus, or correct my growing fixation with random noises. I am now 26 and attempting to finish my Physical Therapy BA. When I am researching, often I read a report several times before retaining any information. It is almost as if the information never commits to memory. If I hear any noises while I am working, the information is lost forever. I feel like my mental capacities are degenerating, mainly because I am now attempting to commit and recall information on a daily basis. I am currently in a very intensive philosophy course and I am feeling the greatest frustration of my life. I have read the Stanford Online Encyclopedia of Philosophy , the entire encyclopedia. I am currently trying to conquer the question of Does man have free will? . For me to even begin this APA paper, I had to read every theory and counter theory to build some kind of mental image. I just do not know what to do, I have done extensive research on ADHD in the past 18 years; I do not want to be questioned like a criminal, when I am trying to succeed in life. I am completely sincere, will I have this kind of difficulty? The internet seems to relate that most people are fighting to find a successful treatment, because of dishonest patients. I am not very good at accepting condescending tones; what are my options? Specifically, could you suggest a type of physician? i.e. pediatrician, psychologist?