I ve had problems with anxiety and depression ever since I was 7, and my teachers have commented throughout middle and high school about my inability to pay attention to lectures or meet deadlines or remember things. I always misplace things and have trouble staying organized, and I freak out if I do anything wrong. (this makes driving difficult--I have had to pull over and cry if I miss a turn.) I also have panic attacks. No matter how much I do or how successful I am, I m relentlessly self-critical and feel that I ve never done enough. Sometimes I say horrible things to my friends or family because I feel like I m not worthy of their love and I want them to hate me. I ve been to various psychiatrists and therapists since I was 7, and they ve diagnosed me with depression, anxiety disorder, and panic disorder. But I wonder if that s actually what it is, because I haven t found anyone with these problems whose experience matches mine.