I'm so afraid, I was put on life suport 5years ago while I was dying on hospice against my d.n.r. I was in respiratory failure and kidneys, we're compensating then couldn't anymore , I was suppose to die, but they did this to me then 2 years after , I was dragged out my bed illeagally by crisis I coded in ambulance heart stop i was dead and against my d.n.r. I was brought back to life. I am so traumatized , I won't let anyone near me , dr. Couldn't fill scripts after I couldn't see him. And finally a nurse came to house she did my medicines and all supply's, but, I have had a fever, over a year now. I tried to explain to her, that my immune system , sucks sinsce I was treated antibiotics so long before ms. Diag. With autonomic complications, as teenager. Then the ALS. Was why respitory failure , that's why I went on hospice. Lot of info sorry. But she never treated my infections properly , only giving me 5 pills of levaquin at time , fever go down to 96. 97 again and then shoot right back up. And the pain my back like my kidneys would get worse , time and time again , now I'm terafied , my temp runs to 99. Pain has spread over the year and is excruciating at times, my entire abdominal area, back has spread and even runs down my ureters , that what feels like dull ache, sharp stabs . Now I'm nauseous , all time, even dizzy. And there has been little yellowish, things stuck in my catheters, and like whitish, gook, on the outside of them. And like gritty, feeling, it sounds, crazy but I been catherizing for 19years and this ain't , normal, it hurt to have my back mostly right side to touch barly bed . I'm in bed all these years , it's like my kidney is hurting that bad pain both sides but can't lean against right side, I think my insides are rotting out, because I shouldn't, be here, I'm just waiting for some kind of justice, all this time, only reason I not pull plug yet , I'm so afraid I'm gonna die again, before I get to tell on them, And I can't go in ambulance , I died in it last time, I'm so afraid of everyone. That p,a, won't come back , cause ins, asked them why I fever, over a year. No one ever came to house for blood or urine, to check, another thing I think is related to this , I get periodic, sores in my mouth, This pain gets so bad , the ventilator can't push the air in , you know the pain when you can't breathe, Can't move at all , And hot flashes soaked then chills , I can't keep doing it, I hurt to much, please if you have any idea , tell me but I have no way to get help,