Why Does One Have An Excessive Sex Drive?

Hi:



I have been troubled for many years by my sexual feelings and desires and wondering how abnormal I am.



I'm currently in my early fifties and have been extremely sexual since a very young age. I have a very small penis which when soft is about 1" long and very small in diameter and when erect is about 3 inches long and and maybe 1" wide and is uncircumsized. I am tall (6'4") and in great shape and very handsome and getting women always came easy. In all early years I have been embarressed by never being able to satisfy a woman with my penis...although could easily with my oral skills. The problem is that I get so much sexual pleasure knowing I'm too small to satisfy a woman with my tiny penis and that when making love just knowing they are not being satisfied and getting sexually frustrated turns me on so much. After exibiting their sexual frustration...I would immediately start performing orally on them and start finger fucking them until they were satisfied. After getting to know each partner well and being able to open up and be honest...I would say that I knew my penis was too small and that women needed huge cocks to really cum hard and that's why I would go to work on their vaginas with my mouth to satisfy them the best way I could. I just can't express the excitement of telling them I knew I was too small...and when they would confirm that...it would send me over the top sexuallity. Now, I would never let them know that their truthful words excited me...but I would masturbate afterwards to their words with unbelievable passion and excitement.



In both my marriages I would purchase vibrators and large dildos to help them cum and after many years the dildos would get larger and larger and their pleasure would increase with size. I actually had both wifes become addictive to size and found extreme pleasure with this fact and when they would verbalize it to me during sex. During sex and after fucking them with my tiny penis I would say...ok...now it's time to feel a real cock in your deep pussy and they would be so ready and cum so hard. They would say after a short period of intercourse...please hurry and cum in me and please fuck me with my dildo so I can cum...please! I would tell them repeatedly over months and years that women so need size to cum hard and they certainly already knew that or very quickly became believers. Two marriages and over 100 sexual encounters and just thinking back over all the sex I get so excited and masturbate sometimes up tp 6 or 7 times a day. My tiny penis controls my life.



I have always loved porn and get so excited watching men fuck women with huge cocks and just listening to women cum hard is so exciting. In addition, I love women that crave huge dildos...my current wife loves her silicone dildo that is 12 inches long and is 3 inches thick and she takes every inch and cums so hard. I also get exciting from fisting my wife and watching fisting movies...the deeper and more extreme the penetration the better.



I have been masturbating daily since 11 and once again I'm addicted to porn. I have also been serviced many times by men which I love and especially my men that have huge cocks and jack off while sucking me to powerful orgasms. I love having men and women view my tiny penis and it provides me so much pleasure from the humiliation. I love getting a massage from women and always tell them not to get too excited from my massive organ...love when laying on my back on their table when my penis is under 1" and they tell me it's the smallest penis they have ever seen...and they have seen hundreds...love knowing it's the smallest...so exciting! I love when men and women ask....how does your poor wife deal with not being able to feel you inside of her...and I'm honest and say that only through masturbation.



After all that information...my question is...this can't be normal...can it?