Had Fractures, Fusions Following An Accident. Having Pain In Neck. Painful Lump Beside Anus. What Is The Solution?

Can you shine some light on my existing and potentially future neck surgerys for me ?i have had a bone graph between c-6 & c-7, directly after the work accident,since, c-3 through c-1 have been fused with a plate., removing all fractured scar tissue, and discs. He wanted to fuse all discs clear up to c-1 ,not a bad idea, though $ didn t prevail, now I m in a world of hurt, fixing to go for a long walk, or swim, don t know which, don t really much feel like being a burdon on society anymore...wish I could have done more for society while I was alive. It s just when my neck got fucked, so did I, I wasn t worth anything anymore...my neck ....no fixing that shit...a frigging life of pain 24/7, can t get away from it , it s worse than wisdom teeth, just friggen horrible pain, constant, and riding in a vehicle is like chewing on tin-foil...People , I ain t shittingyou, will some-oneplease recognize my pain......also I have armature large lump, about the size of a grape, whacked painful developing right beside my anus, it makes sitting down very painful...I haven t been able to eat as going to the bathroom can be really excruciating,